**Delayed publication. Written circa spring of 2022** I’m not going to sugarcoat this. There were a couple of months of this year that really sucked. My heart physically hurt every single day. It felt like an actual bruised limb that someone injured and then tried to comfort with a big fat weighted blanket of sadness. … Read More
I chose this title because I want it to be obvious that no part of what I’m sharing can be attributed to any of my own efforts, decisions, or judgements apart from the Lord’s guidance and sovereignty. At the end of the day, in His goodness, God used every sharp turn or bump in the … Read More
To look in the face of an unknown future And laugh at the idea That you think you know how the light will break the darkness; To open both hands with both eyes closed And to be okay with the way all the pieces fall So that they can be put back together again; To … Read More
Several people have asked me about school recently – when I finish, if I’m excited, if I’ll stay in San Diego, where I might want to work. It’s wild that those are even questions to be answered already. Didn’t I just get here? What happened? It feels like I moved yesterday; like I applied to … Read More
I’ve prayed a lot about what to say in this particular post, at this particular time in my life. I didn’t want to say whatever I felt in the moment, just because a “milestone” birthday seemed like some kind of right-of-passage to go on about nothing for fun. I knew there was something greater happening … Read More
written 1/30/2020 “And Ahab told Jezebel all that Elijah had done, also how he had executed all the prophets with the sword. Then Jezebel sent a messenger to Elijah, saying, ‘So let the gods do to me, and more also, if I do not make your life as the life of one of them by … Read More
“And Moses said to Aaron, ‘This is what the Lord spoke, saying: “By those who come near Me I must be regarded as holy; And before all the people I must be glorified.”‘” Leviticus 10:3 This verse is fueling my worship. I think the impact of it lies in the fact that the God who … Read More
Written Sept. 2019 publishing delayed Well, I had a plan to get lots of things done today, but instead I have spent the better half of the day doing basically none of them and crying my eyes out. That’s not for anyone’s pity, it’s just reality and it’s okay. Week eight living in Southern California … Read More
I’ve had writer’s block for weeks, wondering what my next published post would end up being, knowing something was percolating after having written about seven drafts. It wasn’t until God spoke this message at this time straight to the core of my being that anxiety relinquished its grip on me completely, allowing me to finally … Read More
I recognize there may be people reading this who are, at varying degrees, invested in the enneagram’s supposed insight into the complexities of human personalities. I’d like to preface this by saying that I don’t write this to bash or condemn anyone’s opinion; I write to articulate and solidify my own convictions and reasons why, … Read More